Anxiety and ADHD life of mom when you can't get your medication

I promise we have been reading lots of books for everyone to enjoy our review.  Life however gets in the way.  I have found myself with Insomnia off and on though out December and now into January.
Wonderful part about Insomnia I am able to get lots of reading, cleaning, baking, Xbox games and endless Netflix watched. 

FYI I don't get the Hype about the Crown.  I watched the entire first season and I guess I need things to blow up.

With the New Year we found we have new insurance that decided to not cover my son or my ADHD medication.  From Dec. 15 until January 10th I was out of my ADHD mediation helps me function.  

I find it difficult to be able to focus priorities. Instead I follow my thoughts that lead me from washing off the kitchen table and dumping dish in the sink to remembering that  my car needs to be cleaned out. Dish do not move to the dishwasher because I am off to car. While cleaning out my car I find myself remembering that I didn't finish cleaning the kitchen. I fill the trash bag but leave it in my car as I head back into the house to the kitchen. Oh no its lunch time so time to make lunch  once again I am distracted by a thought and I am off. Before I know whats going on it time to start dinner with a half cleaned kitchen, trash bag in my car and three bags of trash needing to be thrown out.
At night the insomnia start because anxiety takes over telling everything I haven't be able to finish though out the day.

I had Anxiety attacks because I couldn't get my thoughts to slow down long enough to be able to process my thoughts feeling overwhelmed and confused.  My days flew I kept myself locked in my house because I wasn't able to deal with life, the noise surrounding.  With ADHD it isn't always hyper but being able to hear everything around me unable to focus on anything even the person standing 3 feet in front of me.  I have to ask that person to repeat themselves because I hear everything.  I set off my social anxiety because I don't want to constantly as someone to repeat themselves.

I find I am unable to connect with my family because I am to tried to focus on anything from lack of sleep.  My amazing Doctor refused to allow insurance tell him what to do so after three rejected letters he was able to get insurance to accept the need of the medication and after a month I find that my ADHD mediation is apart of life.
I spent my life against medication because "the world is over mediated" or "everyone has ADHD" but learned to be the best mom sometimes I have to admit I can't do it all alone and medication is necessary to live a fulfilled life.

The medication help me be "normal" Normal is over rated so it helps be the Best Heidi I can be for my family and life.

This new year I have set a personal goal to accept my mental health myself. Accept that for me to be the person I want to be Medication is apart of my life.  It is hard but it is a goal.

Here is back to Book Review.

Book Review: The Burglar by Thomas Perry

Title: The Burglar 

Author: Thomas Perry 

Stars: 5 Stars

Review:
A fantastic mystery told in a most unusual manner. A young cat burglar happens upon a triple homicide scene while committing a home burglary. She discovers a camera which has recorded the entire crime. After taking precautions to not be on the recording she takes the camera and departs the scene just as private security arrives. From that point it becomes a matter of survival from whomever is chasing her. The story takes several twists and turns before the entire scheme is resolved. The story is told from the burglars point of view which is quite a bit different from a police view. I enjoyed the book from start to finish and recommend it if you enjoy a mystery with a different view point.

I have rated this book 5 stars.

I received an ARC from Netgalley for my unbiased opinion.

Thank you Frank for the Review

Synopsis:
Elle Stowell is a young woman with an unconventional profession: burglary. But Elle is no petty thief--with just the right combination of smarts, looks, and skills, she can easily stroll through ritzy Bel Air neighborhoods and pick out the perfect home for plucking the most valuable items. This is how Elle has always gotten by--she is good at it, and she thrives on the thrill. But after stumbling upon a grisly triple homicide while stealing from the home of a wealthy art dealer, Elle discovers that she is no longer the only one sneaking around. Somebody is searching for her.

As Elle realizes that her knowledge of the high-profile murder has made her a target, she races to solve the case before becoming the next casualty, using her breaking-and-entering skills to uncover the truth about exactly who the victims were and why someone might have wanted them dead. With high-stakes action and shocking revelations, The Burglar will keep readers on the edge of their seats as they barrel towards the heart-racing conclusion.

Hardcover, 304 pages

Expected publication: January 8th 2019 by Mysterious Press

About The Author

Thomas Perry is the author of 25 novels. He was born in Tonawanda, New York in 1947. He received a B.A. from Cornell University in 1969 and a Ph.D. in English from the University of Rochester in 1974. He has worked as a park maintenance man, factory laborer, commercial fisherman, university administrator and teacher, and as a writer and producer of prime time network television shows. 
He lives in Southern California.
His website is www.thomasperryauthor.com

Book Review: The Au Pair by Emma Rous

Title: The Au Pair 

Author: Emma Rous 

Stars: 4 stars

Review:
A well written and told story concerning three grown children. It is told in two parts. The present is told by the sister and the past by the Au Pair, of the older brother, leading up to the birth of the other two children. It concludes with the truth, or at least a version of the truth, involving the deaths of the parents and attempt on the life of the Au Pair. 

The story moved along smoothly and I found myself completely involved in seeking the truth. I have rated this book 4 stars.

I received an ARC from Netgalley for my unbiased review.

Thank you Frank for your Review

Synopsis:
eraphine Mayes and her twin brother Danny were born in the middle of summer at their family’s estate on the Norfolk coast. Within hours of their birth, their mother threw herself from the cliffs, the au pair fled, and the village thrilled with whispers of dark cloaks, changelings, and the aloof couple who drew a young nanny into their inner circle.

Now an adult, Seraphine mourns the recent death of her father. While going through his belongings, she uncovers a family photograph that raises dangerous questions. It was taken on the day the twins were born, and in the photo, their mother, surrounded by her husband and her young son, is beautifully dressed, smiling serenely, and holding just one baby.

Who is the child and what really happened that day?

One person knows the truth, if only Seraphine can find her.

Paperback, 384 pages

Expected publication: January 8th 2019 by Berkley Books

About The Author:

Emma Rous grew up in England, Indonesia, Kuwait, Portugal and Fiji, and from a young age she had two ambitions: to write stories, and to look after animals. She studied veterinary medicine and zoology at the University of Cambridge, and worked as a veterinary surgeon for eighteen years before starting to write fiction. Emma lives in Cambridgeshire, England, with her husband and three sons.

The Au Pair is her first novel. It will be published in ten countries, in nine languages. She is currently writing her second book.

She can be found on Facebook at https://www.facebook.com/EmmaRousAuthor/
and on instagram as emmarousauthor.

Book Review:The Light Over London by Julia Kelly

Title: The Light Over London

Author: Julia Kelly

Stars: 5 Stars


Review:
An intriguing story that takes place in the present and also in the early years of the second world war. While assisting in the valuation of an estate an appraiser finds a diary, from a young ATS volunteer, from the beginning of WWII. She is given permission to try and track the original writer, or her family, to return it to the family. The story by itself illuminates the hardship and realities of war in England and the life of the ATS volunteer who trained and served in an Ack-Ack 

squad protecting London. It takes the reader through the best and worst times of her young life. And with all good stories it has a great twist at the end.

I have rated this book 5 stars.

I received an ARC from Netgalley for my unbiased review.

Thank you Frank for the Review!!

Synopsis:
It’s always been easier for Cara Hargraves to bury herself in the past than confront the present, which is why working with a gruff but brilliant antiques dealer is perfect. While clearing out an estate, she pries open an old tin that holds the relics of a lost relationship: among the treasures, a World War II-era diary and a photograph of a young woman in uniform. Eager to find the author of the hauntingly beautiful, unfinished diary, Cara digs into this soldier’s life, but soon realizes she may not have been ready for the stark reality of wartime London she finds within the pages.

In 1941, nineteen-year-old Louise Keene’s life had been decided for her—she’ll wait at home in her Cornish village until her wealthy suitor returns from war to ask for her hand. But when Louise unexpectedly meets Flight Lieutenant Paul Bolton, a dashing RAF pilot stationed at a local base, everything changes. And changes again when Paul’s unit is deployed without warning.

Desperate for a larger life, Louise joins the women’s branch of the British Army in the anti-aircraft gun unit as a Gunner Girl. As bombs fall on London, she and the other Gunner Girls relish in their duties to be exact in their calculations, and quick in their identification of enemy planes during air raids. The only thing that gets Louise through those dark, bullet-filled nights is knowing she and Paul will be together when the war is over. But when a bundle of her letters to him are returned unanswered, she learns that wartime romance can have a much darker side.

Illuminating the story of these two women separated by generations and experience, Julia Kelly transports us to World War II London in this heartbreakingly beautiful novel through forgotten antique treasures, remembered triumphs, and fierce family ties. 

Hardcover, 304 pages

Expected publication: January 8th 2019 by Gallery Books

About The Author:


Julia Kelly is the award-winning author of books about ordinary women and their extraordinary stories. In addition to writing, she’s been an Emmy-nominated producer, journalist, marketing professional, and (for one summer) a tea waitress. Julia called Los Angeles, Iowa, and New York City home before settling in London. She also writes contemporary romance novels as Julia Blake. Readers can visit JuliaKellyWrites.com to learn more about all of her books and sign up for her newsletter so they never miss a new release.

Book Review: Hero Dogs: How a Pack of Rescues, Rejects, and Strays Became America's Greatest Disaster-Search Partners by Wilma Melville, Paul Lobo

Title: Hero Dogs: How a Pack of Rescues, Rejects, and Strays Became America's Greatest Disaster-Search Partners

Author (s): Wilma Melville,  Paul Lobo

Stars: 5 stars

Review:
Hero Dogs is the book for animal loves around the world. I do not like reading about Animals dying so when I decided to review this book I knew what I would be reading.
I loved reading the amazing stories of animals that help in tragedies from around the United States.  How they are just as much hero's as the people who sacrificed their own lives.
I learned so much from the talent people who trained almost a majority of recuse animals to find the living as well as the dead.

This is a must read book for anyone interested in training animals or service animals.  Readers will get amazing insight into the level of training a service dog goes though as well as the dogs and trainers go though to become a Search and Rescue dogs.

Thank you to Netgalley and the publisher for the advance copy of Wilma Melville and Paul Lobo Hero Dogs.

Synopsis:
In 1995, Wilma Melville volunteered as a canine search-and-rescue (SAR) handler with her Black Labrador Murphy in the aftermath of the Oklahoma City bombing. At the time, there were only fifteen FEMA certified SAR dogs in the United States. Believing in the value of these remarkable animals to help save lives, Wilma knew many more were needed in the event of future major disasters. She made a vow to help 168 dogs receive search-and-rescue training in her lifetime—one for every Oklahoma City victim.

Wilma singlehandedly established the National Disaster Search Dog Foundation (SDF) to meet this challenge. The first canine candidates—Ana, Dusty, and Harley—were a trio of golden retrievers with behavioral problems so severe the dogs were considered irredeemable and unadoptable. But with patience, discipline, and love applied during training, they proved to have the ability, agility, and stamina to graduate as SARs. Paired with a trio of firefighters, they were among the first responders searching the ruins of the World Trade Center following 9/11—setting the standard for the more than 168 of the SDF’s search-and-rescue dogs that followed. 
Beautiful and heart-wrenching, Hero Dogs is the story of one woman’s dream brought to fruition by dedicated volunteers and firefighters—and the bonds they forged with the incredible rescued-turned-rescuer dogs to create one of America’s most vital resources in disaster response.

Hardcover, 336 pages

Expected publication: January 8th 2019 by St. Martin's Press

About The Author: 

WILMA MELVILLE is a retired Physical Education instructor and grandmother of six, Wilma founded the National Disaster Search Dog Foundation (SDF) to address this gap in our nation’s disaster response network. Still active within the Foundation, Wilma serves on the Board of Directors and is involved with the planning of the National Training Center. When time permits, Wilma enjoys piloting her experimental airplane, an RV7A, based at her hangar at Santa Paula Airport.